Kittenm123

1. I am not going to write TGMH anymore. I have lost interest in it.

2. I am moving to my tumblr, I'm rarely on here anyway, so follow me there for updates on anything else: kittenm1.tumblr.com
A few notable mentions on tumblr (All a part of the 3DG shipping community that I have joined: huggaroo.tumblr.com/ Huggaroo! operat0r-.tumblr.com/ Operat0r! imprisonedinsanity.tumblr.com/ ImprisonedInsanity! (AKA The first straight, male shipper EVER. He's Canadian too) breakmedown20.tumblr.com/ Breakmedown20! 3dgftw.tumblr.com/ 3DGftw!

And last but not least: parti-hardi-arti.tumblr.com/ sourcherry-and-frenchvanilla.t… PARTI-HARDI-ARTI AND SOURCHERRY-AND-FRENCHVANILLA!! AKA ARTI AND ESSPE!! AKA THE CREATORS OF BRADAM!!

Not sure about you people, but I'm fucking lonely.

I'll upload a Valentines Day BINYE later, even though BINYE takes place sometime in early summer.

I'm just so fucking worthless. There's no fucking reason for me to be here. At least if I was dead I could help some grass grow or some shit....

I feel so guilty sometimes. I complain and complain even though I know it's not her fault... It could be so much worse, yet here I am complaining about her not being on.

But the thing really is, I'm waiting for her ALL day on facebook. I wait through an entire shitty school day to talk to her, and the first thing I do when I get home is open facebook. And then I wait. And wait. And wait.

Now, I'm supposed to be in bed, asleep, at 10 o'clock. 10:30 at the latest. The only time she gets on when she can stay on for awhile is at around 9-10 pm. So I end up staying up late until around 11:30 to talk to her. And she is ALWAYS saying that I need to get more sleep.

She posted a journal last night at midnight. I had been in bed for at least 30 minutes. It was 1 am her time. She asked why I was always complaining about her not being on, when I'm not on when she is. And the truth is, it's because she's on so fucking late at night that if I stayed up on facebook that long. I'd be falling asleep at school the next day. She's never on at an ACCEPTABLE hour. I know she has dance, and rehearsal and vocals and guitar, but she could at least TRY to get her schoolwork done BEFORE those.

Honey, I love you, but you gotta remember that you can get up at 10 am, I can't. I have to be up at 6:20 am. You can't tell me that I need more sleep, then go back and say that I'm never on when you're on. Either start shaping up, or pick one or the other.

There are days when I feel like she really doesn't care about how much I need her. And then I feel so selfish because she has a life, and it's my fault that I don't.....